I’m trying my hardest not to get upset. I WILL NOT be that person who fixates on what could have been instead of what they have ahead of them.
Unfortunately, my potential lease with JJ will not work out. After pursuing the lease I realized I can’t afford to pay his board, possible injections, upkeep, lessons, etc. I was so set on leasing him that I started dreaming of what we would accomplish this year in the show ring together.
Now that JJ is going back to his owner, I’m not sure what I’ll do about my riding. The “new barn” doesn’t have a lesson program so I might be out of luck riding there. 😦 But, my “old barn” will be too expensive for me to continue after surgery. Looking on the tiny minuscule bright side, I guess it’s good I have 6 weeks after my surgery to try and figure something out for my riding.