I woke up Sunday morning with a mini high, excited to go to the barn for my first ride on Angel now that I’m officially leasing her again. I was bringing her munchkins from Dunkin’ Donuts (her favorite!!) and I was going to use my new cooler I got for Christmas.
Anyway, right before I left I heard my mom on the phone talking to one of her friends, “That’s my daughter, she’s a rider.” It made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I think hearing my mom actually acknowledge to others and call me by that descriptor validates everything somehow. Whatever it was, the good feeling stayed all the way until I got to the barn.
However, Angel’s other half leaser (who I will not rant about right now but I have quite the opinion on) got a new wooden trunk (a tiny one) and put it in front of Angel’s stall. I was supposed to put my trunk there. Yes, I have a plastic one, but hey, I throw a cover on it and nobody knows the difference. Being me, I peeked inside and all it had was a few brushes, her paddock boots, and a saddle pad. I’m sorry, but when I had my trunk there last year it had much more important things. In fact, if I could have put my trunk there I would have let this girl use some of my stuff for Angel, too.
I hate to admit it but it put a damper on my mood. I still had a good time with Angel: spoiling her pre ride and post ride, and we even had a little bit of good flatwork (ok, it was more like a bumbling hack spent chatting, but we both had fun).
When I got home my parents asked about Angel, and I feel pretty guilty because instead of sharing the good things, I immediately whined about her other leaser and the trunk and everything bad in the world…. My mom even offered to talk to her mom considering they were like co-moms in this whole situation. Mom, I am eighteen years old I do not need you to call this girl’s mother.
On top of it all, I’m getting stressed about finals in two weeks as well as coordinating my riding schedule with work, ski team, and the other leaser’s schedule.
Any advice? Or am I overreacting about having to share Angel for the first time?